This challenge is proving to be quite revealing about myself! I'm not super clear yet on what is actually going on within myself but these are some observations:
I go into auto-pilot mode ALOT! I forget to specifically pray for SayGoBeDos. It doesn't seem like I really have any but then at the same time, I do follow through on my thoughts to do things for people but then I don't really consider them to be SayGoBeDos. Hmmmmmm........... CLARITY, that's what I really want to have!!!!!!! To really know when I am following the Spirit! Is it my mind or is it the Spirit telling me these things?
It seems that if you are really living in the "SayGoBeDo" mode, you would be feeling really great ALL of the time! And so far, I haven't changed much from my regular self. I'm either living a really mediocre life or I do SayGoBeDos alot without being that aware. So my challenge is to become more self aware. I want to have an amazing experience with this challenge but I think it's going to take me digging deeper and FOCUSING more deliberately on this challenge.
Today our family followed through on thoughts that I had to visit a couple of people in the ward. One, our home teacher, is a shut in - never goes to church or home teaches us, so we are going to him to get "home-taught". It would have been so easy to put it off until next week or the week after but we JUST DID IT on our way home from church and it felt really good. Brother Wise seemed really happy for the visit. He's really lonely and misses his wife who passed away 5 years ago. Hopefully we can get him coming back to church. The other was a visit to some new move-ins in our ward that have two boys who are old enough to go on our Stake Pioneer Trek. We just met the oldest boy and he was so nice and seemed interested. It felt good to put ourselves out of our comfort zone (literally - because the wind was really blowing and it was FREEZING outside) instead of just going home after church and crashing. That little bit of extra effort made me feel better and I hope will help that family eventually. Maybe in our efforts to do the BIG things, we overlook really simple ways that we can make a difference. It does take extra effort though - even for the small things.
It's so easy to just go along living our lives and not connecting with those around us but it can make such a difference to them - and to us. I've been thinking alot since we started this blog how often I go to the grocery store and don't even look at people let alone talk to them. That is such a a shame! I'm remembering the article by CS Lewis called "Weight of Glory". Something that he says in there really strikes me:
"The load, or weight, or burden of my neighbour’s glory should be laid daily on my back, a load so heavy that only humility can carry it, and the backs of the proud will be broken. It is a serious thing to live in a society of possible gods and goddesses, to remember that the dullest and most uninteresting person you talk to may one day be a creature which, if you saw it now, you would be strongly tempted to worship, or else a horror and a corruption such as you now meet, if at all, only in a nightmare. All day long we are, in some degree, helping each other to one or other of these destinations. It is in the light of these overwhelming possibilities, it is with the awe and the circumspection proper to them, that we should conduct all our dealings with one another, all friendships, all loves, all play, all politics. There are no ordinary people. You have never talked to a mere mortal."
One of my SayGoBeDo's is to learn how to truly honor individual humans - especially my family members. To treat them with "awe" when in their presence. So, off I go to another week of striving to do better. Looking forward to hearing everyone else's experiences!
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